torn apart and haphazardly put back together again Lyrics

I didn't feel like talking to anyone today

I couldn't muster up the strength

I didn't feel like being myself today

Anxiously awaiting the moment it ends

I didn't really feel like breathing today

So fuck it all, it's just a waste of time

I don't feel it anymore

All my life has been ignored

My mind and heart are both at war

Tear it all apart and watch it burn again

And again

And again

And again

I didn't feel like being real today

I couldn't muster up the strength

I didn't feel like it would be okay

But somehow everything just all makes sense

Broke my mind again, but I'm indifferent

Broke my mind again, but I'm indifferent

Distant

Fuck my mind again with forces beyond my understanding

Fucked my mind again, but I can't notice the difference

I think I fucked up

I think I fucked up this time

I think I fucked up

I think I fucked up

I think I fucked up this time

I think I fucked up, but there really ain't shit on my mind

I think I did too much, but I feel like I'm socially blind

I think I fucked up, but I don't know that for sure

Tore my mind apart, threw my brain on the floor

I think I fucked up

I think I fucked up this time

I think I fucked up

I think I fucked up this time

I think I fucked up

I think I fucked up

I think I fucked up

I think I fucked up

I don't feel it anymore

All my life has been ignored

My mind and heart are both at war

Tear it all apart and watch it burn

I never fucking needed shit

It all comes back again, and puts itself together despite getting fucking bent

Despite every time you hurt me, we could still be friends

I don't know I'll find forgiveness if I see it to the end

Maybe it really don't matter

Throw it at the wall, watch my brain just splatter

Watch as all my fucking brain cells just scatter

Don't give me your pity, cause I am not flattered

Listen to my brain just fucking make clatter

Until I make you think that my life might matter

Now you put my heart on a silver platter

Let it bleed out while my soul just shatters

Don't even think about it, it'll all come back to the way it always was

No matter how much you fight it, it'll all come back around again

You're safe

Doesn't it feel nice?