I'd Be Lying Lyrics

(you reach out, a lifeline in the dark)

(In the dark)

I built these walls with my own two hands

Brick by brick, everything to withstand

The weight of it all on my spine

A heavy load, but I call it fine

(I call it fine!)

No footprints, but mine, on the road

No extra arms to share the load

I've learned to live with the silence deep

But the cracks in my heart don't let me sleep

And you reach out, a lifeline in the dark

But I flinch when I feel the spark

I'd be crying if I'd be dying

But even then, I'd be lying

Saying I don't need the touch of a friend

Pretending I can stand to the end

Thankful, yes, but I can't let go

Of the only way I've learned to grow

I'd be crying if I'd be dying

But even then, I'd be lying

Every time you try to pull me in

It feels like losing, like I let you win

But there's a warmth in your steady hand

A truth I don't quite understand

I've carried alone what I could have shared

Afraid to show that I was scared

But your kindness cuts like a blade

In this fortress of fear that I've made

And you keep trying to break through

But I don't know how to lean on you

I'd be crying if I'd be dying

But even then, I'd be lying

Saying I don't need the touch of a friend

Pretending I can stand to the end

Thankful, yes, but I can't let go

Of the only way I've learned to grow

I'd be crying if I'd be dying

But even then, I'd be lying

It's hard to trust when you've walked alone

When your heart beats against a heart of stone

But maybe these walls weren't meant to last

And maybe my strength is letting the past

Go oh

I'd be crying if I'd be dying

But even then, I'd be lying

Saying I don't need the touch of a friend

Pretending I can stand to the end

Thankful, yes, but I'm learning to show

That letting you in might help me grow

I'd be crying if I'd be dying

But even then, I'd be lying

Brick by brick, the walls come down

A quiet hope in this battleground

I'd be crying if I'd be dying

But even then, I'd try to stop lying

Saying I do need the touch of a friend

Because I can't stand to the end

I will try my best to show

That letting you in will help me grow

I'd be crying, if I'd be dying

Making sure I'd stop lying