The Lie My Country Sold Me (Plastic Flag Mix) Lyrics

And I wake up again

I've lost the time to fix what time is left

For all my knowledge

All the tools I learned to cope leave me bereft

And so I carve the rut

And drag the knee I cannot seem to bend

I toil for a dream I can't revive

A heart I cannot mend

And I keep treading water

Barely staying up to take a breath

Surviving isn't living

So I court oblivion or death

I aim my prayers into the sky

Like fucking clouds can cure what ails

And scream for all the noise to die

All that I've lost and all I've failed

If only I was someone else

This simulation of myself

This glitching avatar could be

My holy ghost inside the shell

If only I was someone else

I wish that I was someone else

I cannot seem to be at peace

Inside the bondage of myself

Inside the bondage of myself

Inside the bondage of myself

There is no sympathy

No clarity, No way to course correct

I'm told it's me and only me

By all the voices in my head

I ponder all the times

I scraped the bottom looking for an out

And all the ways this place just keeps me

In the cycle, up and down

I keep on building the same prison

And escaping just to see

I can't tell if I've grown

Or if the fucking prison's growing me

I'm wearied and I'm tattered

Too young to die, too old to matter

Pretending I will have some legacy

The lie my country sold me

The lie my country sold me

The lie my country sold me

The lie my country sold me

I know it's all a fucking cosmic lottery

Yet it seems like it's a burdensome responsibility

If I let go then it's a possibility

I lose myself or maybe all the lies I've come to know as me

I hope this finds you well

I hope that I can find you in myself

I hope that I can be like you

That I can just escape myself

If only I was someone else

I wish that I was someone else

I cannot seem to be at peace

Inside the bondage of myself

It's not that I'm not flawed

It's just that I deserve a god

That looks at me and sees a child of light

Inside this hideous facade

And I can conjure such a creature

If I have a steady hand

I know that if I wake up shaking

I'll have forfeited the plan

I hope there's respite

From the weariness and pain

And even though I've tried to close the door and seal it shut

I hope the door remains

In time I hope I get there to the place

Where I can finally rest

And where my voice might matter more

And I'm not some unwelcome guest

And maybe all the holes are patched

And all the cuts are stitched

And all the things I never was and never did

Can somehow not be missed

The loathing, all consuming pace

At which I've misconducted life

Has left me too far gone

And it's too hard to keep on

I feel so broken now

I feel so broken now

I feel so broken now

I feel so broken now

I feel so broken now

I feel so broken now

I feel so broken now

I feel so broken now

But there's so much more to it

At this age I should know