I HAD LOST EVERYTHING Lyrics

I get the feeling that nobody want me to speak

I'm sick of my own voice

I put myself in this miserable situation

I'm here by my own choice

Put a hole in my arm

Im screamin into a void

I don't open up anymore no the curtains are closed and the inhabitants don't make a noise

Workin to silence my brain

I wanna change

I don't wanna keep sufferin

I feel retarded

The smokin don't help

Like all of my thoughts are bufferin

Poor connection i can't connect

I move with no motive i lost at my quest

I'm paranoid bout the thoughts in my chest

I'm boxin up half of them burnin the rest

Burnin the rest, bring me to vet

I love like a dog n i beg with the best

I used to hate all the gore and the sex

Of the world now i know easier to detest

The people in suits, the people in planes

The people at work n the people on trains

I am a misanthrope living in shame

Want it all to end, i'll be who you blame

Still suffering every step that i take on my journey just adding to all of my bodily pain

Every time that i look in the mirror a monster reflect and i do not have sight of my face

Out on a walk and i can't help the fantasies

Can't even say what i got in my brain

Man i swear if i did then the jury gon vote for lobotomization n send me away

I ain't built for reality life is a marathon i cannot keep up the pace

Ay, lousy n tired n smokin myself to a daze

Ay, self harm a return solace, it ain't a phase

Ay, moral compass astray id lost my ways