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Kat, I dreamed over and over

He was alive and he was in my house

He'd been alive this whole time

He just didn't tell us

Now he was living with my family

But he still wouldn't talk to me

And I never could find him

Because he never wanted me to find him

And I wanted so badly to go on a walk with him

I wanted to text him but I couldn't find my phone

All I could find were my mother and my brother

Wanting to fight about how distant I'd become

But I couldn't stay there, I had to take the stairway

To landings filled in warm, golden glares

I'd seen him just that morning rounding the corner

He was somewhere in that sun-setting house

I woke to find myself whispering

Whispering under my breath

It's not true

It's not true

It's not true

It's not true