toxic relationship (lonely version) Lyrics

I've been disconnected

I can't seem to fall in love

I know very well it starts with yourself

But it's not looking up

Lost my motivation

Cause it left me for someone else

My confidence cheated

Called me conceited

And happiness left for cigarettes a while back

The worst part of all is it's all in my head

Here I go again

I'm in a toxic relationship with myself, myself

Right when I get enough of it I go right back, right back

Cause she's the love of my life

But she can ruin my nights

There's no one else I despise more than me

I'm in a toxic relationship with myself, myself

Swear that I'm addicted

To breaking my own damn heart

I count all my flaws and self sabotage

Then feel like a work of art

That's why I wish there was a way to break up with yourself

Cause I'm always tryna heal from this hell

Wish that I could get closure

And start over as somebody else

I'm in a toxic relationship with myself, myself

Right when I get enough of it I go right back, right back

Cause she's the love of my life

But she can ruin my nights

There's no one else I despise more than me

I'm in a toxic relationship with myself, myself

It's so toxic

Where my mind is

Can't get out of bed

Stuck in my head

Lied to my friends

I'm on and off again

Here I go again

Here I go again

And again

And again

I'm in a toxic relationship with myself, myself

Right when I get enough of it I go right back, right back

Cause she's the love of my life

But she can ruin my nights

There's no one else I despise more than me

I'm in a toxic relationship with myself, myself

It's so toxic

Where my mind is