This Isn't The Me I Wanted You To Be Lyrics

I remember when you were small

Helping me decorate the Christmas tree

Stood on a chair doing dishes with me

Always beside me watching carefully

You grew up strong I was proud to see

But now you're lost and I feel helplessly

I see you slipping through my hands

Like sand in the wind fading fast

I've walked this road before I know the end

But I won't give up I'll fight again

This isn't the me I wanted you to be

I know the road you're walking

Cause I've been there you see

I prayed for your future

For light in your eyes

Now I'm watching you fall

It's breaking me inside

This isn't the me I wanted you to be

I've known the jail walls holding you in

You're lost in shadows trapped within

Your boys still ask when you'll be home

They don't get why you're out there alone

I've seen this pain and I know it well

But I'll keep praying you'll break the spell

Tents in the cold nowhere to go

The drugs and the pain steal the girl I know

I'll keep reaching no matter how far

Keep loving you wherever you are

I dream of the day you walk through the door

Your boys by your side the shadows no more

We'll sit and we'll laugh nothing to hide

Till then I'll hold hope you'll come back with pride

This isn't the me I wanted you to be

I know the road you're walking

Cause I've been there you see

I prayed for your future for light in your eyes

Now I'm watching you fall

It's breaking me inside

This isn't the me I wanted you to be

I once was you lost in the dark

But I found my way back still bearing scars

If only you knew the strength I see

There's a fighter, a mother, waiting to be free

This isn't the me I wanted you to be

I believe in you

Believe in yourself

And the me you were meant to be