Talking To Myself Lyrics

No, no no no, you're not real

You're in my head, you're not fucking real

(Jay, look closer)

No, no, no, no!

Took you long enough

Bout time that you brought me up

I haven't had a pill in months, where's the molly, bruh?

Matter of fact, hand me a beer, I'm parched

I need a drink, I'm starved, I need to eat

The car, grab it

And let's go hit the scene

Last time that I felt this mean

You were just sobering up off acid, X and Hennessy

Those were the days, right?

Polo shirts and air flight Nikes, go hit the stage right after we stayed up late night

Now what the fuck you wearing, not a splash of red up on you

What are you, emo? goth kid? No rock revivals?

Ironically, you let your true colors show

At least we got the team with us, wait

You're kidding, bro really?

Where the fuck is Jon? NLC, LBZ

Fuck it, even Thrilla, LNXS, even Herbie, g?

Nothing, what the fuck did you do

You had the world in your palm, and you just watched it go poof

God damn, you're fucking up, please

Give me some good news

I see that ring on your finger, did you screw her too?

Fucked up everything she made before she knew you

I bet you're on your ass right now just crying, boo hoo

Nothing ever turned out the way I thought it

I didn't get my rap career and now everything's bout to plummet

Now you're telling me you're a singer, it's what the people wanted?

You're out your mind, Justin, now you've really done it, what's this?

You got our name in the paper, wow ok

Not bad for a cheap imitation of Em & Cobain

What else you doing since I've been gone?

Wait, no way

You been dropping punk rock music under your own name?

How fucking stupid are you?

Jay, you need this bottle, what's next

You gonna tell me you're sober, you had a problem?

The only way to solve it like a true alcoholic is to talk about on record

Like it's bout to ease your conscience? no way

A lot has changed since I've been gone, hasn't it?

I go to sleep and now your rap shit is

Losing it's touch, god you're bad at this

Let me take over I'm the pacifist

I'll bring us back to life, im adequate

You bastard, this

Ain't how I planned it at all and now the mask is off

Do you know how long it took me just to get to where you are?

All the power inside of me, while you laughed it off with all your friends

Just smoking some chronic or out there playing basketball

Acting hard in the booth but not a bone in your back at all

You get jumped a couple times, now you think that you have it all

And all the power inside of you slowly fades and passes on

What kind of life is this, you're an artist own it, I've had it ah!

This is scrutiny

I gave you all the tools but it made you go stupidly

Obsessed with fame to the point you started abusing me

You're better off just accepting this is your eulogy

Who are you fooling, g?

I can't accept that we lost the battle with Ether

But we were like 17 when we put the pen to the paper

Now the world is bout to know how you're still your own biggest hater

Can't even put out an album, you need me and now it gets worse

The only thing you're good at is talking shit til the pain hurts

Remember when we challenged ourselves to down all that Jäger

And take whatever pill we could find and like 6 hours later

We were being dragged inside cuz we were pissing off the neighbors?

Well I do, let's do it again

Only this time it's different

Let's go take everything and never forget it

Maybe then will everyone accept the shit you been saying

Cuz hopefully you'll end your music, your life, career and your vision

And don't even get me started when you put out Remission

That shit was so bad, tell me what the hell were you thinking

The only thing that you had going was the features spitting

JL & Bleezo on a record? I'll take credit, we're even but wait

I ain't come here just to dog on you man

Cuz deep inside I honestly am, proud of you fam

From jumpstarting BLVKOUT and acknowledging them

And standing up to what you believe in and honoring fans

No one in the world knows what you been through accept me

So I can say, I see the growth, got my respect, g

I guess what I'm trying to say is, this conversation's pointless

Cuz really, I am you and you, you are me

So really I see you know your self worth at its peak

And it's hard to talk when your low and I know that you're weak

Just keep your head up and

Actually, ah fuck it

Double suicide on three

The truth is, I just want you dead

So that bullet I just let off in your head

Will take you to the other side slowly and make you beg

For a second chance at a life that you took for granted, cuz man

This whole time that I was looking for you and letting off rounds on people

Who ain't deserve it, I just felt deserted

Let me pile onto the bullshit we don't need

And try to relive the magic we both had as grown teens

Neither one of us can go without the other now

I just had to see your face again

You made grandma proud and I mean it sincerely

No more competing

I will carry on your legacy until I'm depleted and empty

So now this is goodbye

I always said that it's you and I til you die

So as I drag your body over to the site that anybody can visit I

Wait, are you alive