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Desensitize my feelings and some more shit

'Cause if I feel too much, I'm on some hoe shit

And my focus? Hocus-pocus, then I'm on some broke shit

"Just barely getting by" shit

That "I can't even buy shit"

That "fuck it, I'll get high so I won't cry" shit

To divert attention, so I get fly shit

Damn, I'm starting not to know who I am

At least they know ROCKSTARVR <3, that's who they see on the 'Gram

Tryna' maintain a public image gets exhausting off the cam

Lately I've been ghost, know that's exhausting for the fam

But these demons been persistent like they got Green Eggs and Ham

Girl, you know I'm low on bread so no I do not wanna jam

Just for now I gotta think because you still gon' order lamb

And I still got bills to pay

And now, need a place to stay

As of lately, I apologize for being in the way

Tried to tell you that not everything's about how much I make

Rather me tell you my feelings or look happy, but it's fake?

When I'm sitting half awake in the front seat

After a long, long night

A long, long night

What more can I do than what I'm doing now?

If I "took it wrong" then can you tell me how?

I know I been in my head for a while

Behind the wheel, putting up hella miles

Hopefully all this will lead to a smile

On your pretty, pretty face

'Cause if all this is in vain, I'll catch a pretty, pretty case

I don't play about my time which means I got no time to waste

Situation bittersweet but two completely different taste

I don't live life in regret but wish some things I could erase from my memory

These remedies however, create space

For me to remember to write

Hoping it makes me all right

Search for a beat that I like

Hit the stu, LED lights