Avoidant Lyrics

I honestly am surprised you're here too

Like do you want me to go?

I don't know

I need to distance myself for a minute

I keep running but I don't know how

Why can't I ever just say what I'm feeling

When I try it just won't come out

My words got caught in my throat

I start to panic and my eyes are darting

Look for the door, I'm starting to choke

Why can't I ever open up more

I want connection but my social signal's starting to go

G-go-o-o-o

I can say what you want me to say but

There's a price that I'll pay down the road

If it breaks us I won't take the blame cause

I'm scared

I take off when I'm scared

I was lost, you were there

But my heart couldn't heal

You're a fool just for caring

Thoughts and your prayers

I won't lie I'm embarrassed

I'm gasping for air

But my walls come back and it's over

No, I won't take this anymore

You can't accept a broken heart

You're testing all my self-control

Yeah I'll admit it's getting hard

Stop

Don't blame it on a misconception

You'll just pretend you don't learn your lesson

Lies out the mouth, use your words like weapons

I'd rather die than to let this live

You can say what I want you to say but

It won't change how you acted before

When it breaks us I won't take the blame cause

I'm scared

You take off when you're scared

You were lost I was there

But your heart couldn't heal

I'm a fool just for caring

Thoughts and my prayers

I won't lie I'm embarrassed

I'm gasping for air

And you couldn't care less

You take off when you're scared

You were lost I was there

But your heart couldn't heal

I'm a fool just for caring

Thoughts and my prayers

I won't lie I'm embarrassed

I'm gasping for air

But your walls come back and it's over

I don't know what's real and what's fake anymore

Like, I don't know who I've been with for the past eight months

I know, I treated you terribly