It's Okay That This Year Was Difficult Lyrics

When I close my eyes, there's nothing there

No spot in my vision or thought I can bare

When I open wide all I see's a room

With nobody in it, I start to deminish

The person I am, the people I love

The brain that I live with will slowly succumb

Afraid of the future and fixed on the past

If we never met would I have my birthday

This year was a mess

So I'm fucking it up

I don't wanna relive what I did from the drugs

That shit wasn't good

Waking up, getting high

I wish I could move on but I'm stuck in the sky

I was caught in a lie

Now I'm dying to try

I was caught in a lie

Now I'm dying to try

I was caught in a lie

Now I'm dying to try

I don't wanna give up

So I'm holding on tight

For the people I love

For the people I'd die

It was hard finding out that one day I will need

To find peace in myself and the will to be free

I don't know where I am with that, I'm just not quite sure

But I pray that one day I will hear from their words

And I pray that one day I'll meet God here on Earth

I don't know where I am with that, I'm just not quite sure

I'm just not quite sure, I'm just not quite sure

I'm just not quite sure, I'm just not quite sure

I'm just not quite sure, I'm just not quite sure

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Working a nine hour shift isn't hard when you're happy

And going out with friends will be good

When I realize they love me

I hate me so much but I know that there things I can do

There is words to be said

There is lies to come true

My work here isn't through

My life here isn't done

My time here is just proof, my time here is just proof

My time here is just"It was 8am and I was finally coming to terms with the fact that things were going to be okay, and I didn't have to worry anymore. The night was over and I was fine, and I was fine"