Atomic Audacity (A Flood of Light) ft. Benway Lyrics

There was one time the sun came up

And everything exploded into diagrams

Meant to illustrate the relationship of parts

There were shadows I had never given the courtesy of the moment

Inviting my eyes to rest like sailors drunk off too much distance

There were angles so sharp it's a wonder I didn't slit my throat

From all that bent-neck-gazing

how amazing -

I surrender

I've laid down these arms only to wrap all of them around you

Me in my overflowing

You in your buffalo horns and rhinestones

Sinking barefoot into the same mud

We flung at those that missed the point –

Pirate hat and parachutes expanding

like desert lungs and dust in breath

If hearts get full,

mine is annexing capacity

Widening in the sun of an evaporating night

Stretched like trampoline drums taut and taught to be with it

The clay and the kiss and the blood you spit

The flat tire, the fire and the drugs we did

The bison, the octopus and the rocket ship

The butterfly in the booth

And did you see what GOD just did

The Moment -

Just as it meant to arrive

And me in my rightful place inside of it

No compulsion from the usual ghosts

Tongue clenched dread said relax here

No clanging of victory medals

From tokens of judgment as sport

The ambient din of time

Dissolved into so much soma, ambrosia

The ringing of its absence

Becoming the only note of its presence

The only noteworthy presence present

Was the presence behind all other presences

This was a presin-ception

My mind in a red eye airport

My face sitting in a booth at an all-night diner

There were no voices at varying paces

Each playing protector in some outdated way

The sentries of centuries and the guardians of this life

Gargoyled at the gates of thought –

Stoned and softened through

No defense

No offense

No Penalty

No game

Nothing penalized

Hijackers jacked off

Gravity taking a nap

Dopamine stacked like doomsday preppers

This might've been contentment

It no longer felt like content

I was the film and the scene went still

Just breath

And light through the window

And the wind and me

And the sense of

Absolute sameness with all of it

All of it

The Moment, cracked open

Like splitting the atomic audacity

To identify with anything

Me in my absurd nakedness, this silly skin

Become glitter fleck

And genuflect in ornamental sunset

The surest agent of mystery

Swirls into existence

Hops from reality to prism

Like an interstellar boxcar

Hobo with its bindle

Of stars in case total darkness

Provides sight beyond

Is the ever changing

Passenger of turnstile

Yet a subtle orbit hints at order

Calls satellites into question

Is proof of center

Where attention

Springs like bloom

Or geyser

Up and out to be argued

By madmen and mathematicians

Who do not know

That we are on some other shit

My god, what have we become

Without stutter or language replied

All of it

Now let go and see what we've done

Become pigeon coo

Rustle and flutter

Become flapping

In evening cool

Become whirring

Of fan on the nightstand

Become sweet temple

Two rooms down

Become gossamer

FatCat akimbo

Become motorcycle

On Highway 20

Become funk-garlic-

Orange-juice-cotton-mouth

Become out of

The pain in my body