drifted alone. Lyrics

I'm freezing it is so cold outside

I be writing in my diary so that I could get by

You said ily to my face babygirl why would you lie

Every time I slit on my wrists I'm asking god why

God why god why'd you put me through this shit

Ion got no friends cause all my locals are weird

I gotta make it with music I just wanna make it so that I could live

Oh no don't look at my wrist no

I'm just by myself cuz I got wisdom

Niggas really think ion hear them when I play dumb

Oh no no no ion think I'll open up again I'll never find love

Oh god I'm so upset again oh god I used to cut

Oh no no no don't do it no

I'm tired of fighting all my demons everyday

I don't wanna wake up I don't wanna live I wanna die everyday

Don't feel like I am good enough it feels like I am always late

I'm being distant cause you hurt me too damn much

I don't like my body I gave it some damage

A few months ago I popped some pills for lunch

I was always high it was not the way to live huh

Thank god I'm sober oh oh oh

Thank god it's over oh oh oh

Last time I got high I was cutting on myself

Fuck these percs and xans ima stay by myself

Had to take a break I was losing myself

Didn't even eat I was starving myself

Nobody was there nobody was there to help

Cuz nobody fucking cares yea lil nigga I could tell

I'll do it on my own ima blow up on my own

I was born alone and I'm gon die alone

I cut all these niggas off now it feels like I won

Yea I won yea I won yea I won

On my own yea alone

I was born alone and now I'll die alone

Y'all didn't care about me so why the fuck would I care about y'all