The Novelist Lyrics

I used to know a novelist

Who wrote on envelopes

She said"It's not that honest

But you can't get by on tropes"

And when she left she filled the mailbox

Bursting to the brim

The story was so beautiful

But so hard to begin

She wrote I am so afraid

Of everything I touch

'Cause everything I ever loved

I loved it too damn much

I used to know an actor

That kid could fill the room

He lived his life in character

And slept in his costumes

And when the final curtain called

He was nowhere to be found

An empty theater echoing

A monologue of sound

Saying I am so afraid

Of everything I say

'Cause every word I ever spoke

It drove them all away

And I am not an artist or a father or a king

But I've seen how fear can break and batter everything

And I am still afraid of everything I know

'Cause everyone I ever loved eventually will go

Yeah I am still afraid of everything I say

'Cause every word I ever spoke it drove them all away

I am still afraid of everything I touch

'Cause every one I ever loved I loved them too damn much