Sunset Lyrics

I look around and I see bodies dropping

Even those who brought us up here - are - now falling

I'm still here - I guess enduring this is our calling

But I wish for another way if at all honest

Sometimes it's not a missing answer that resolves problem

But the fact that one even exists at all problem

Not a look for extraordinary reward problem

But hard to see past all the crap on the wall problem

Lump in my throat as I think of my son

Not knowing if he'll ever come just give me hug

Dap me up play catch with me and his brother at all

This world is cruel - how do I protect them from it all

In large things to the small my aspirations for him damaged

From living in his talents to taking a hand in marriage

I can't fix it helpless - like I'm failing my family

I'm praying abba father my boy can't say daddy

Everybody's an expert but most really don't get it

It's torture when seeing kids thrive reminds that yours isn't

Fighting every day to do whatever you can

nothing seems to make a difference but still have to make a stand

It is vexing - probably something wrong with me

Something special in my genes that brought this on my seed

Was there something that I did that you didn't forgive

Random coincidence? Technological way we live

Joel 21- tell me is this your day at hand

These malfunctions all judgement upon the land

Or just simple fruit - collateral from the fall of man

I don't know just want him writing with proper functioning hands

Heard it all from it's the vaccines to its demonic

But no matter the case an Almighty Judge could have stopped it

You didn't - all that able to do - didn't

Moved different - it's like you got me at cruel distance

Who's Simmons - Psalm 76 in this instance

Need you to arise or is this a fools' mission

Night vision glitching heart stitching ripping

Limping on torn meniscus with forever in the distance

Is that even real? A state of mind given

Fighting to have my faith placed and the son he

Just a fraudulent listing

Ah here we go again let's take another drive

With no control of the wheel and everything is on fire

Was the family that you took worth the testing of job's faith

The pages of the book worth the boils upon his face

Are these pages plagiarized weapons used to enslave

Are black bodies in the Atlantic worth the oceans we now sing

Is it all just a game to you? We aint but a thang to you

Thought that your presence meant better than shame and pain induced coma

Walking to you wouldn't put me under water - at the buzzer

Are you the one or shall I look for another? In the flames

Today I didn't feel like you were worthy

It felt like you were playing games

Yo-yoing with my lifeline I'm tight roping on the string

I Know I should know better admitting this brings shame

I believe but help my unbelief be with me Lord

As I stand in the flames

Lord be with me in the flames

Lord be with me in the flames

Nowadays my equilibrium's off

The struggle's taken a toll I'm going broke from the cost

And my fighting stance is hurting heart torn from the loss

Trying to stick to the code but this script seems cold

Shoulder that you're giving's driving me off road

It's hard to take the high way when blows feel so low

I'm tired and out of fuel I'm riding off fumes

And every missed milestone's vinegar in the wound

Trying to walk by faith but fluid's filling my shoes

Sinking in bloody waters the sharks are circling too

While you seem flippant it's like I'm lost in transmission

You said I'd receive if I petitioned but I didn't

Now prayer is labored cause it feels like you're indifferent

Hardest to ask for more right after denied submission

We talk less drifting the devil's in that distance

Driving to make a point and it feels like you're assisting

No - we aren't perfect but we stayed the course and chose to wait

Until marriage and we kept showing up to the race

Many savage but we didn't steal lie or fake

Seen drought but we weren't chasing another's plate

Many mock you but we weren't taking your name in vain

Didn't hate though we were stolen raped and enslaved

Choose peace though the world is enough to keep us enraged

Didn't have to so why would he have us traffic in pain

Today I didn't feel like you were worthy

It felt like you were playing games

Yo-yoing with my lifeline I'm tight roping on the string

I Know I should know better admitting this brings shame

I believe but help my unbelief be with me Lord

As I stand in the flames

Lord be with me in the flames

Lord be with me in the flames

Thinking back to when I first believed

Drowning under the pressure of a thousand seas

The struggle and the pain rejection and the shame

It's like I felt a boulder break up off of me

And bitterness wasn't around no more

Lifter of my head face to the ground no more

And for the first time I dreamed beyond my front door

And I was welcomed by a father that wanted to be known

Yet at the very same time someone across the aisle

With the same belief as mine was grieving a child that died

As I rejoiced in what your presence produced

They were heartbroken by what it allowed - you didn't move

Yeah pain is a loud alarm screaming the worlds broken

And without it we could bleed out thinking everything's perfect

The sun sets on all is a universal rule

It rains on the just and the unjust is proof

Intellectually I understand that it is true

But it's harder to accept when flooding's up to your roof

With sickness at your door and God's gifting out cures

But somehow his presence don't mean healing for you

This juxtaposition's the tension where doubt lives

A God who gives life peace healing and strength

Knowledge wisdom mercy shelter hope and forgives

Grace struggle pain trial illness and death

I think of John the Baptist the greatest to ever live

Sacrificially served believed the kingdom's at hand

Starved flesh found rest in the hope of messiah

Who was greater than him and would put the serpent to fire

Who baptized Jesus who saw him receiving

The dove from on high the father stamped pleasing

Heard the audible voice witnessed power at work

Even in his own life knowing the details of his birth

Believed like most of the day as in many times through history

The Lord's manifestation meant immediate deliverance

The kingdom at hand meant an upper hand on suffering

The end of oppressive reign at the Mashiach's coming

Last will be first the first should be last

A change in circumstance was a justified presumption

The he got locked up

Mocked and perp walked up

Suddenly his reality didn't align with his assumptions

And he questioned if he correctly identified the one

If you love me and have all power how could you leave me stuck

When you could set me free in a moment - your word would be enough

But left to the word of a harlot would mean a casket shut

Enough is enough I'm stuck in this rut

When life's on the line to die is gain is toughest to trust

Feels like this here pot of gold turned bucket of rust

Then you said

Blessed are those not offended as I conduct

Once the smoke cleared it became clear as day

The strings I'm tight roping on are attached to my faith

Placed by culture and the conditions by which I came

A self-centeredness that needed exposed pruned and slayed

The poor in spirit's blessed cause they know they don't deserve it

Their righteousness filthy rags all resumes are worthless

No one can pull a ledger up and measure up as worthy

That's why our petitions are really just pleas for mercy

Alter anything in me close to the throne I prayed

You graciously allowed these flames to burn away

Assumptions and entitlements ways I believed wrong

Accused you of silence you've been answering all along

Can do all things huh

deliver or don't huh

I will not bow huh

I will press on huh

I will proclaim when my life's on the line

But would I bow if the life were my child's

See the rich young ruler's heart wasn't shown in what he gave

but what he couldn't release stopped his feet from following

If my hopes and dreams die will my faith do the same

Will I be offended by your will and walk away

Or be an instrument when I don't like the notes you play

Cause my deliverance is in the sound that they create

I'll trust that my good is in what you orchestrate

Even if the sound crescendos with my head on a plate

I'm in the flames

Tide is rising high the fire's

Warring deep within in my soul

The struggle calls to break me down

Lord break my fall and don't let me go

Don't let me go