Bitter Fruit Lyrics

I've been left to my devices

Wrapped up in dark crises

Been locked tight to my failures

I never leave this room

I analyze every moment

Regret my every choice

I've lost all motivation

I'm always under stress

I break down under pressure

I'm lost I must confess

I'm scared of every action

Afraid of my own voice

My beast is contained by fearful, frail and fragile bars

My freedom is constrained by your wide open arms

My saviour's my tormentor my heart's my enemy

I'm about to break no one understands me

My beast is contained by fearful, frail and fragile bars

My freedom is constrained by your wide open arms

I can snatch defeat straight from the jaws of victory

I'll taste the bitter fruit and call it sweet

I've been strictly medicated

I'm tired but I can't rest

My body fights my battles

My brain fails every test

I count my paces forward

And I count each one back

I'm always escalating

No exit strategy

My whole damn world is raging

I'm at capacity

I always waste my chances

Afraid of my own voice

My beast is contained by fearful, frail and fragile bars

My freedom constrained by your wide open arms

My saviour my tormentor my heart my enemy

I'm about to break no one understands me

My beast is contained by fearful, frail and fragile bars

My freedom is constrained by your wide open arms

I can snatch defeat straight from the jaws of victory

I'll taste the bitter fruit and call it sweet

But I will fight my battles on my own terms

I will fill pages with my own words

I will rage through to my own voice

Singing to a microphone

I will hold my darkness close

I will never surrender alone

I will slay my demons

Just like I always should have

I'll take control of myself

I'm in control of myself

I'm in control

I'm every day surviving

Digging deep but rising

I'm lonely lost and bleeding

But for me I'm done grieving

I'm picking up the pieces

All the good parts I'm keeping