starving Lyrics

Bought a bottle of hair dye in platinum blonde

Spent all of my paycheck on that website you love

I think that maybe if I start to look like you

I'll manifest that I'm half as good as you

Self respect never came easy to me

I think I'd love myself more if you loved me

Oh, isn't it sad to think that?

I was born for the life you have, oh

You've got the hair and the body and everything I want

Oh, you walk in a room and its like time just stops

You're running laps around me and you don't even try

So why do I...

Curl my hair like you'll notice me

Think of you when I go to sleep

Ponder everything I'll never be

'Cause there's you and there's me

Oh, you don't know I'm starving to be just like you

And you don't know the half of the shit I'd do

To be just like you

I've read all of the books you claim inspire you

I have your every single photograph in my bedroom

Think I'm obsessive, its upsetting, but God its true

I can't get over you, oh

You've got the life and the money, you're making it all work

Oh, you walk in a room and every head just turns

Anything I do you can do better

So why do I try when it doesn't even matter, like...

Curl my hair like you'll notice me

Think of you when I go to sleep

Ponder everything I'll never be

'Cause there's you and there's me

I'm half the person but twice your size

The way you talk has me hypnotized

You look so good, well I'm a fucking mess

But I guess it is what it is

'Cause you don't know I'm starving to be just like you

And you don't know the half of the shit I'd do

To be just like you

Oh I think I'm in love with you, darling

My every thought is your hair and your body

Get butterflies if you even look my way

Oh god, oh god, I'm going insane

I'll stalk your boyfriend, memorize your type

Find a guy who fits the bill just right

If I keep doing everything you say you like

Maybe I'll feel a little more alright

So I'll curl my hair like you'll notice me

Think of you when I go to sleep

Pretend I'm everything I'll never be

'Cause there's you and there's me

Oh, I know I'm starving to be just like you

And I know that despite all of the shit I do

I'll never be like you

(You, you)

They don't know you like I do

(You, you)

I wanna be you

(You, you)

Or wanna be with you

(You)

I'll never be like you