Yesterday ft. Kristen-ilycia Lyrics

So yesterday

My fears, doubts, and insecurities won

Surrounding on all sides, they jumped me

Affirming what I fought to disprove

That I'm not worthy

I'm not good enough,

That I'll never amount to anything more than this

No one cares and no one's listening to what I have to say anyway

I put up the best fight I could

Tried to replace the negativity with love

But in the end

They gained the advantage

Held me in captivity, torturing my mind

Bombarded with uncertainty

They tried to undo the years of work I put in

All the springs I spent cleaning my mentality

Scrubbing graffiti-like lies off my subconscious

And yesterday, they won.

Most days, my mind is a battlefield

With worries waging war on my psyche,

Insecurities speaking LOUDER than truth

And fears forever fighting for my attention

It's been a while since I took an L.

I'm usually able to keep these menace at bay

But I got caught slipping yesterday

Yeah, yesterday, they got the best of me

Reminded me of my humanity

Overwhelming with sadness and grief

Emphasizing what I lack

They point out I'm not as wise as I thought to be

Not always as strong as I seem

Yesterday

My insecurities took home grand prize

Evicted my confidence and damaged my pride

Left me sulking

Licking my wounds

But ain't no hoe in my blood

See, I'm a fighter, so I'm ready for round two

Because today,

Oh, today, I'm taking back the joy they stole

I'm coming back to prove doubt's voice wrong

If in order to get to the beauty, you first have to take out the beast,

Then I'll fight every negative monster fear and insecurity brings

Mentally wrestling with spirits and principalities,

I'll combat every worry-filled thought with positivity

I'll grind up my fears

Roll them with love

Spark creativity

Inhale peace, and blow

I got the juice

So watch as I turn lemons into lemonade

And my light shines bright so it only makes sense for me to be attacked this way

But this setback was just a set up for my comeback

Watch as I slay

Because today

I am more than my thoughts

More than my insecurities

Bigger than my fears

I am verbal creator

Mental chain breaker

Aggressive risk taker

I am divinity wrapped in humanity

Royally dressed by destiny

And I will body every obstacle placed before me

Yesterday

My fears, doubts, and insecurities may have won the battle,

But they ain't gonna win this war.