Hate Myself Lyrics

I've been running, running from the person in the mirror

Can't stand the sight of him, his face keeps getting clearer

Try to drown the noise, but it's loud in my head

Wish I could change the channel, but the pain's all I get

I wanna help, yeah, but I'm falling apart

Every time I reach for hope, it rips me apart

The scars on my soul, yeah, they're deeper than skin

Wanna break the cycle, but I don't know where to begin

I'm tired of the fight, tired of the wait

Looking for an exit, but I'm running out of faith

Tell me where's the light, where's the hand that'll save

Feels like I'm digging my own grave

I hate myself, can't you see it in my eyes

I'm trying to believe, but I'm buried under lies

I wanna change, yeah, I wanna break free

But it's hard to win a war when the enemy's me

I hate myself, but I'm screaming for help

How can I lift him up when I'm losing myself

I'm waiting on the day when the sun finally shines

But I'm stuck in the storm and I'm running out of time

I talk to God, but the silence is loud

Begging for a sign, but I'm lost in the crowd

I thought by now I'd be somewhere better

But every step forward just tightens the fetter

I see the way out, but it's harder to walk

The weight on my shoulders, yeah, it's cutting me off

Tryna breathe, but the air's too thin

How do I fight back when I'm caged within

I'm tired of pretending, tired of the pain

Feels like I'm drowning, can't escape the rain

I'm waiting for the day when I can finally see

That maybe there's a way to set myself free

I hate myself, can't you see it in my eyes

I'm trying to believe, but I'm buried under lies

I wanna change, yeah, I wanna break free

But it's harder in a war when the enemies need

I hate myself, but I'm screaming for help

How can I lift him up when I'm losing myself

I'm waiting on the day when the sun finally shines

But I'm stuck in the storm and I'm running out of time

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be enough

Or if I'm cursed to always feel this rough

I wanna hope, but I'm afraid to believe

That maybe one day I'll finally be free

I wanna see the light, but it's fading away

I'm holding on to hope, but it's slipping today

Maybe tomorrow, maybe someday soon

I'll find a way out of this empty room

But right now, I'm stuck in the dark

With a heart that's heavy and a soul full of scars

I keep praying for change, but it's out of my hands

Still I hold on, cause I want to understand

But maybe it'll never end

But maybe it'll never end