In Solitude Lyrics

What the fuck do you expect me to feel,

Losing sight, losing grip of what is real,

The voices in my head, yeah they want me to play,

But I'm so sick, I'm deranged.

Tossing and turning I cant get any sleep,

My eyes are burning, they are burning I need some relief,

Waiting to snap it and it could happen at any moment,

I'm sorry for what I'll do, I really can't control it.

Run right now while you still have time,

Its okay, I'll deal it with alone, I'll be fine.

It's sick, it's twisted, the demons that live inside,

Clawing their way up infecting my mind,

Suicidal thoughts at the age of thirteen,

They've always been with me, I guess that makes them family.

I've tried to run, tried to hide, shut them out with pills,

Burnt myself, cut myself for a cheap thrill,

My mother knows I'm trapped with self destructive tendencies,

I cut myself just to feel anything.

Spiralling into a hole,

I've made this mess on my own.

So deep I've mad it my home.

Pills in my drink keep going until I cant think,

Try to silence the noise but it always there.

Always there.

Everyone I've known always leaves, turn around and run,

Its not worth it here, dragging down the ones I love,

Just trying to gasp for air, a tiny breath,

I'm sorry, I'm trying, I'm doing my fucking best.

Friends come and go, I understand that's life,

But what am I meant to do when I'm alone all the time.

Wake up, nothing to look forward to,

The dreaded feeling of being in solitude.

Spiralling into a hole,

I've made this mess on my own.

So deep I've mad it my home.

Pills in my drink keep going until I cant think,

Try to silence the noise but it always there.

Always there.

This is the last straw, I've been trying to long,

Pushing forward day by day writing how I feel in my songs.

No one notices or if they do they don't care,

So I tie the rope and kick the fucking chair.

Fuck.

Losing consciousness, my visions failing now.

The last thought on my mind was that I let you down.