pushing 20 Lyrics

She's dating and quick

She'll take a nice trip

Alone I bite my lip

She didn't think twice, I bet that's real nice

I barely picture it

Not like I'm trying anything new

Im the same as I've always been too

Like a re-run of old TV shows,

Predictable and comfortable

And mind numbing too

I still can't lose

I still won't lose

I sit here eroding

Guess I'm disappointing

Pushing 20 aint it funny?

I sit here eroding

Guess I'm disappointing

Pushing 20 aint it funny?

They're married and perfect, I feel like I'm lurking

Just a walking question mark

Im insecure, I'm in the dark

Cause I can't even picture it, feeling whole in my own skin

And feeling something new and liking it

I sit here decoding

Guess I'm just disappointing

Already pushing 20

Aint it funny

I hate the tide changes

I hate the moon phases

I hate your expectations behind subtle accusations

I hate how it all makes me feel so small

I hate how I am simply just your doll

I hate how they all move so fast, while I'm trying to perfect my past

I sit here eroding

Guess I'm just disappointing

Already pushing 20

Aint it funny

Ooh hahahahah

I sit here decoding every useless thing

Pushing 20

Can you tell me?

Did you keep up?

Did you survive?

OOOHH hahahahahahhahahahahahah

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