This Life Lyrics

I'm sitting here and

I am all alone

Blinds drawn, lights dim

i take a shot of hope

The rush, the ring

Then I hit the floor

Get up brush off

Then I reach for more

Right here, right now

I have lost control

The fear of losing myself while losing hope

Hold on to fear

I cant get away

The fear of losing myself while letting go

I can't live this lie forever

I say but I can't say no

I can't live this life forever

I say but I can't let go

The day turns to night

The night turns to day

Alone I feel internally

The day turns to night

The night turns to day

Will it forever be this way?

Is this ever going to change?

Am I ever going to change?

Its been too long, too long

Is this ever going to change?

Am I ever going to change?

Its been too long, too long

I can't live this lie forever

I say but I can't say no

I can't live this life forever

I say but I can't let go