trapped in torment. Lyrics

Things are getting crazy lately

Haven’t been myself thinking about dying on the daily

Neck deep digging till I get weak

The devils on my shoulders while I’m at his feet

Stressed out 24/7

Can’t get a grip on my aggression

This tension never lessons

This is my depression session

Gripped tight with old wounds

Mouth shut, silenced and reduced

This trauma acts like a noose

That binds closer and closer the more that I move

And what do I do?

This rage that I feel results from abuse

And what do I do?

It’s been years and yet still refuse the truth

There’s no closure

With the pain that stems

From my own hatred

Or my wish for revenge

You think you’ve gotten out

But then they pull you back in

There’s so much that I can’t say

So much that I can’t undo

You think I wished for this?

Like I wanted to be abused

Fuck you

For blaming me for all of your mistakes

You’ve played the victim for far too long

While I burned at the stake

And what do I do?

This rage that I feel results from abuse — and what do I do I’m peeling at the flesh cause there’s Nothing to lose

There’s no closure

With the pain that stems

From my own hatred

Or my wish for revenge

Let me out

You think you’ve gotten out

But then they pull you back in

You put the pressure on me to speak

While you sulked in your own misery

You hate yourself and you blame me

So in hell we’ll both take a seat

I’ll be the fucking devil if that’s who you need me to be

I’ll be the fucking devil if that’s all you want from me