The Understudy Lyrics

17 years old

Laying in my room

I'm crying bout a guy

I never really knew

It's 3am

Laughing on the floor

Prank calling him again

I think I was just bored

I tell him I like him and then I run away

I'm just so scared of being loved in that way

I wanna find

Codependence that's endless

Not mutually unspoken

When we both need the attention

I want to find someone

Who really truly sees me

So I'm not playing the role of

The understudy

30 years old

Buying a house

It's what we said we'd do

If there is no one else

I'm scared of commitment, I'm scared of being sure

So I'll push it down and hope I find a cure

I wanna find

Codependence that's endless

Not mutually unspoken

When we both need the attention

I want to find someone

Who really truly sees me

So I'm not playing the role of

The understudy

La la la la la la

La la la la (la la la la la la)

La la la la la la

La la la la la la

What if I'm lying to myself?

What if I never truly felt it

What if I tell the whole world

And then I come back feeling helpless

What if there is no one else

Who understands the way I am

What if I'm incapable

Of being more than someone's friend

I wanna find

Codependence that's endless

Not mutually unspoken

When we both need the attention

I want to find someone

Who really truly sees me

So I'm not playing the role of

The understudy