Day One Anxiety Lyrics

And as of late, I feel I'm barely functioning

A tiresome existence, forever scared of something

Desperately clutching to things I find comforting

A temporary fix from this suffering

Wondering, what mum would think

I know she wanted more from this son of his

That crushing weight I've lived under it

Slumbering to lullabies of 'please don't become him'

The sufferance of father, inheritance of son

A childhood bully, hereditary grudge

Aggressive was the hug, cynical the laughing

Drowning in a gene pool of shark fins

Clasping the life from my arms

But the pressure that's applied from own palms

Anxieties is a dance in a crowd of harassment

One step missed I could die from embarrassment

You were there at my birthday

And every one since

Celebrated my worst days

With a petulant grin

You were there on my born day

And each one after

Revelled in my first cry

Misleading my father

I'm so reliant on my Ill

For reasons I am standing still

Please save me

From a life confined by fear and safety

I'm so reliant on my Ill

For now I'm trying not to feel

Don't tempt me

This creature can not take from what's empty

The perpetual buzz of unease is exhausting

Life under the threat of a sword swing

Causing tremors in my chest then the panic starts

Veins simmer to a paste and my teeth might avalanche

Am I the sum of worn belts and rusted cogs

Always clogged with the feeling something's wrong

Then I'm up and gone, I disassociate

It's easier to hold things that pose no weight

Told to take pills, morph to a passenger

Contort to a supporting character

In the gallows, harrowed by the measurement of you

This boulder on my shoulder, a pebble in your shoe

Anxiety my greatest foe an old friend

A shield, a hatch, closed in

Since the very first dawn of my memory

I've been running from a monster I have never seen

You were there at my birthday

And every one since

Celebrated my worst days

With a petulant grin

You were there on my born day

And each one after

Revelled in my first cry

Misleading my father

I'm so reliant on my Ill

For reasons I am standing still

Please save me

From a life confined by fear and safety

I'm so reliant on my Ill

For now I'm trying not to feel

Don't tempt me

This creature can not take from what's empty