Not Here, Not There (From The Motion Picture In The Night) Lyrics

I was better

When we were together

Sinking ship

I was on my way down

Distortion's contortions

All around

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

I swear I -

I was better

When I thought

We'd last forever

Flock Together

Birds of a feather

I'm a

hell raiser

Soul breaker

Spirit taker

Smile faker

I'm not perfect

Beneath the surface

I'm just filled with lies

I thought it'd lead me to paradise

Powerless to cowardice

My gardens are flowerless

Difficult disposition

Ways the flock flies

Cursed feathers

Burnt heather

Is it my pride ?

Or my bed of lies

I don't know what's worse

And I know It's absurd

But you never meant to hurt me

So I never spoke a word

I made it all look painless

But I

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

But was I ever really there ?

Was I ever really there ?

I used to be pure

I was heaven sent

Maybe I'm not really here

And never have been

Sometimes I go numb

The feeling I cover

Cold feet and colder shoulders

Makes a Frostbitten lover

Guilt on my back a boulder

That got heavier

when I tried to hold her

Is it my pride?

Is it this bed of lies

I lie in,

Cry in

Watch the days go by in

Smell of vanity

Reeks from these sheets

I lied

To myself

Saying It could've worked

I lied

To her,

Saying she came in first

I'm Searching for spare change

Through the rain

Signing

coins equal affection

And each coin is a silver lining

Patterns never ending,

Soul bending,

And I'm done defending

My

Falling victim

Of pride and lies

When it's myself

That Dwells in cloudy skies

Affection is a privilege

I'm Not worthy to share

But

Maybe even

From the beginning

I was never really there

I don't want to be here

Anymore

I don't want to be here

Anymore

Anymore

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

I swear I cared

But was I ever really there ?

Was I ever really there ?

I'm not here

No

No

No

I'm not here at all

I'm not here At all

No, No, No