POT OF GOLD Lyrics

If I had it my way them boy there wouldn't see the light of day

But how can I say that when God grants me mercy and grace

My dad admitted addiction, slow steps is better than none

Point of view is powerful cause he's a hero to my son

My dead cousin visited me in my dream, I said 'please stay long

I was supposed to show her my songs

But the moment I turned around to get my laptop she was gone

Ironic cause one minute she was alive and the next minute she was not

I'm talking to Zeddy on the block, he said anger's getting on top

When you're trying to move forward in life there's always a roadblock

And most of the times we hold on to things of the past

We can't rewind the clock so it's better to just let it go

For our own sake, and our future kids sake

Shaq got the courage to rebuke my parents for their ways

And he's not even saved so how come I ain't got the words to say

I get lazy or caught in my own weight, I need to change

I'm self righteous, I can't blame the lack of guidance

I'm older now I'm wiser, I grew up suffering in silence

Now I send prayers and let God's will be decided

I used to wonder why I'm wired the way I'm wired

But I'll be asking all day

I grew up playing where there was no ball games

I grew up 15 man in the hallway

To me and myself alone on the court day

Still got a smile on my face always

Cause one thing about Kay that smile just can't break

I never knew how dark my blood was

Till I cut deep beneath the surface

There was something different about that Sunday service

I'm feeling convicted, Pastor speaking about forgiveness

There's certain places I felt pain and I haven't been back since

I closed my eyes and now I'm driving so close on the cliff

I look back in the rear view mirror, see myself as a kid

Then I lost control of the whip and I slipped

Falling through the sky but God is gracious

Cause he granted me wings

I open my eyes and they're teary

The inner me fighting the inner me

That's why I get weary

The younger me masked with insecurities

The confidence a facade, his eyes are mirage

I forgive me

I'm drowning in the depths of my sorrows

The moments I got baptised I should've let all go

He told me not to worry about tomorrow

So why am I still anxious

I see the rainbow

But this greedy heart still wants the pot of gold

KS