Ever Since You Left Lyrics

Ever since you left when I wake up it feel different

In my mind in my heart I feel a great division

I keep overthinking all the things that I didn't

I wasn't their for you and I shoulda payed attention

Calling your phone can't get no reception too far away we lacking connection

Don't know where you at, but I hope you in heaven

Without you to guide me, I don't know where I'm heading

Demons after me, I'm just praying it's a blessing

Keep going through a cycle where Ion learn my lesson

It really did kill me, I won't ask another question

I told em' all my wrongs and they used it as a weapon

Ain't get to say goodbye why I'm really upset

Said you had depression and this is where it led

You could give me everything, all the money and the bread

I would still feel this way like forever I would dread

Walking through this life without my twin, that's what I said

If you told me you were leaving, swear to God I would've pled

You took my soul with you like I mine as well be dead

I don't wanna feel this feeling, I get high up off the meds

Back to back days, I can get up out my bed

Thinking bout you

Ohhh

Thinking bout you

Ohhh

Thinking bout you

Ohhh

They telling you they're trauma when you have your own pain

You really try to listen when you know it's not the same

Nothing ever helps, not the money, not the fame

Thoughts taking over, put that gun up to your brain

If you start bleeding out, I'ma cover up the bleeding

Why should you stay? I could give a thousand reasons

I'd do anything to keep my dawg breathing

You playing with him, I bet you I'm squeezing

I don't wanna feel I just get too high

I don't wanna do it, but I do it to get by

I left everyone that was doing me right

I felt I needed y'all and it fucked with my pride

I promise I'm not weird, I'm just way too fried

I don't need no help to myself, I lied

I can't even count all the times I cried

Bro hit me yesterday, said he losing the fight

Carrying your pain, you drown in it all

You feeling alone, you don't got no one to call

You down another pill, the only way to solve

They pumping out your stomach while I'm screaming at the wall

Got too many gone, no more early graves

Just love while they here, don't push em' away

If I left today, would you miss my face? would you post me and say I was great?

When we ain't talk in years and yeah that's the case

You don't gotta go right now

Told you that I'm here, I won't let you fall down

Just for you to stay, I'll take another round

Wish you would've told me what was really going on

Six feet in the dirt, thought we pose to live long

Long

Long

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

Don't go

When I don't wanna feel, I just get too high

I don't wanna do it, but I do it to get by

I left everyone that was doing me right

I felt I needed y'all and it fucked with my pride

I promise I'm not weird, I'm just way too fried

I don't need no help to myself, I lied

I can't even count all the times I cried

Bro hit me yesterday, said he losing the fight