My Life Lyrics

It starts when I was nine

My friends were all so divine

I thought nothing was wrong

Everyone loved my songs

Then when I reached ten

My friends left me already

And by the end of the year

My mother ended up dead

Then I went to eleven

Wishing I was seven

I started hanging out by myself

Cause my friends were all ended

I started being depressed

My life was very compressed

Everyone I used to love

Chose to make me a mess

Then when I turned twelve

I was not myself

It's like being forced by Santa as an elf

I hated my life

I really wanted to die

My friends came back to me

But they were not as nice

Then I turned thirteen

A new school, new me

I found two friends I could hang with

They weren't as mean

At least for a day

They hated my ways

I wish that I could just go back to the better days

Where do I even go

When nobody's on my phone

My life (Why is my life this way)

Is not fine (Can't I go back a decade)

You know how happy I was

You know how much I loved

I used to laugh so much

But my friends turned to guns

When I used to be seven

I wished that I was eleven

But now the tables I turned

I just wanna go to heaven

I know when I was a kid

My parents arguing

I didn't know what it meant

So I start arguments

I wish I understood

My mother crying in her room

My mother fighting in her room

My mother dying in her room

Where do I even go

When nobody's on my phone

My life (Why is my life this way)

Is not fine (Can't I go back a decade)

Why can't I just go home

Why can't I forget though

Oh I (How do I breathe, how do I breathe)

Wanna die (Why do I bleed, why do I bleed)

That's my life