Lil' Timmy Lyrics

I don't trust nobody

Not even myself that's why I'm a homebody

No need for homeboys I'm not finna go probably

I wish I had a choice I'm froze in my own body

The cold just blows by me

I never could blame my parents for the way that I am

They did a hell of a job

Ain't no way I could spend time condemning them

All the the things that they did for me thank God for sending them

Couldn't be a coincidence

Nevertheless I know the parts that they played

It isn't personal but worth me healing marks that were made

The sharper the blade the deeper the cut

I'm know I'm bleeding it ain't easy to be cleaning it up

I think it started off way back

From missing my games I rlly wish I could change that

Time spent away I rlly wish the could say that

You can't do what you say then nigga why would you say that

That's why I don't play that I'm speaking on straight fax

With all due of respect

Looking back the isolation may have came from neglect

I started craving for attention not behaving the best

Thinking maybe they'll see me if I'm crazy I guess

Acting a fool I gave it my best

To master the room persuading the guests

To say I'm the best that they ever met

To fill a crater that was paved in my chest

Congratulations never gave me the rest

That I need in my soul

Thinking maybe my death will be better to show

Whether people would stress

Or even if they would know

I'm questioning if my test will ever help me to know

Then again maybe I'm tripping gotta keep that on the low

Lil Timmy don't deserve to be loved

Lil Timmy gotta work to be loved

That's what the serpent told me

Lil Timmy only worth it if he gives me

All his gift then I'll return him some love

It started working on me

Lil Timmy sitting right where I want him

As I keep him here distracted Ima take more from him

Give him pride fear lust shame

As long as he's with me then Ima give him everything

I took it out on God not my dad not my mom

You a fraud I was wrong all along about you

I've been living without you now I'm gone

I know you here but I doubt we getting along

I though you're supposed to be strong

Days nights year after year

They said you be moving but I'm gonna move clear of you

I may be fearing you but you ain't here

So why am I seeking you ain't never here

I'm twenty-two my life has since progressed

But still I face the threat of loneliness

I feel I'm still the kid that needs to chase and fetch for compliments

It's really hardened me I want to long forget the harm I caused

I'm hoping karma draws the card that pays my debts

A word from God would help

I'm busy worried about myself

Like when these verses finna blow

I feel discouraged can you help

But the distance that I set back when I was a kid

Still has me by the neck it's a blessing if I live

Every second spent alone put me in a zone

I don't think I need nobody else can't pick up the phone

I would rather do it by myself till I turn to stone

Grew accustomed to this lifestyle now a nigga grown

I would rather starve to death than let you give me a crumb

It's too hard to accept so send it back where it's from

If that means living in debt while I live in regret

What you niggas except you can't forget where I'm from

Lil Timmy is a menace

Lil Timmy has a smile

Lil Timmy is a child

Lil Timmy loves swimming

Lil Timmy so smart

Lil Timmy so bold

Lil Timmy has a heart but it took a couple blows

Now he's in a dark room the one that scarred him

Thinking nobody cares the minute they lost him

Nowadays dark rooms come around often

Shifting his thoughts over to limitless darkness

Thinking back to that visual got me miserable

What if that had been my kid can I forgive myself

That makes it difficult

I could never blame my parents I think they did enough

So it's only God to blame I think I'm big enough

I have more peace in pain than when I'm getting stuff

Think I'd rather be in chains than let you give me something

Yeah I hear about your grace but I don't feel it none

I feel the tears coming

I ain't cried in a while like I don't feel don't feel nothing

I've telling myself that I don't fear nothing

But I'm scared to death

And all these rooms getting darker why am I still running

Lil Timmy don't deserve to be loved

Lil Timmy gotta work to be loved

That's what the serpent told me

Lil Timmy only worth it if he gives me

All his gift then I'll return him some love

It started working on me

As my tears dry my eyes clear

No time for questioning how I got here

I'm slipping back in the vision

And come to find there's a difference

Looking down from above I see that God's here