Miserable Fuck Lyrics

I can't stand to hear everyone talk

Everything that's happening is just pissing me off

Why don't you shut the fuck up

You fucking fuck

'For I cut off your tongue

Goddamn people are so fucking dumb

How can I reconcile, that I'm stuck here for a while

My souls got infinite miles and my path is dialed

How aren't you horrified, mortified, someone give me a sign

Oh god I don't have a fucking spine

Will you skin me alive

I'm not worthy to wear mine

Reality I always resist

Living blindly in the abyss

No one should have to live like this

It's time to force a paradigm shift

Ayahuasca

Step outside the box and find the formula

Digest the transcendental elixir

And listen to what the Gods whisper

I used to get sleep paralysis for months on end

Hallucinations, not sure my sanity went

Now I'm waking up, can't fucking breathe

Throats closing up

Close encounter with death every time I slept

Didn't know I had sleep apnea

Grim messages from my subconscious they're bringing my traumas from outta darkness

I'm going to save myself 'cause no one owes it to me, I've made myself a promise

I'm gonna find my purpose

I have to find a reason to live

Something besides relationship

Go on beyond where no one's been

It's so odd

Look behind the curtain see the glimpse of a god

Is my ego a façade

Every step I make leads me to see who I'm not

Last year I was suicidal, scared of my emotions

Didn't tell my friends, I didn't want them to see me so broken

It was fucking horrible

Losing my will to live, feeling unlovable