Shouldn't Be Here Lyrics

And I'm giving it all back

Every little something

That kept me from coming up

Kept you from coming thru

Put us on wrong tracks

Opened up big cracks

And kept us from being cool

I know it's been lot of years

Some indiscretions

Led to a lotta tears

A lot of contempt

A lot of time spent

Wasting away

Cutting my mind

Stepped on my pride

Drifting astray

Wonder if we go'n make the day

So I'm giving it all back

Letting my whole past fade away

Bury it deep and don't mark the grave

'Cause everything I need to belong is gone

There's nothing left for me to believe in

My soul grieves

That dash of spice in our lives

We lost, nothing was tasting right

I knew the price couldn't afford the cost

Though I had means

I stopped reaching for strings

Let those feelings sail away

Still don't know my

Left from right

Still don't know my

Lows from highs

All I knew was

Loud and clear

All I see is

I shouldn't be here

I'm giving it all back

All of the memories, all of the fun

All of the misery, all of my sanity

Let all the passions run

Out of my body onto the street

Leaving me empty

Shedding this all completely

Maybe right here now ain't where I'm s'posed to be

At some nadir

Searching for peaks that's out of reach

In twenty-six weeks could I turn this all around

Drop the dead weight holding me down

Stop all this gasping for air, breathe

Avoid distractions and lead

Untie every part of me

Sometimes I wish we didn't do some of the things that we did

But what good is it to admit it

It's like I channeled some Ra

But I don't know if I'll make that far as a sideshow

So I just brace for the blow

Grabbing a scythe for the outgrowth

Hope that I don't swing it

Still don't know my

Left from right

Still don't know my

Lows from highs

All I knew was

Loud and clear

All I see is

I wouldn't be here

Without you