Fitful Steps on the Steep Trail Lyrics

I left my peers,

Though my laughs were real.

I was excited,

But that's all it was.

While I was busy showing affection,

My mind kept generating questions.

Every time I climbed up those stairs,

Till I sat on that swivel chair,

I started to worry:

What happens if I stay?

It was rare for my heart and mind to synchronize,

So I took the chance to decide.

Now, I'm out here

Taking fitful steps on the steep trail,

A path I've never trodden before.

Thought I'd only use my feet,

Turns out I have to use my hands too.

Sometimes it's sad and lonely

But I hope,

These fitful steps on the steep trail,

Will be over soon.

A few times, I noticed.

I was walking ahead of them

Then, I found myself looking at them,

Shrouding my footprints with theirs.

And as they walked past me,

I wish I had realized it sooner—

I didn't belong there.

And it was never their problem,

But mine alone.