Searching for the Light Lyrics

Tomorrow will be better, that's what I always say

But I lay here in my bed, let the hours slip away

I check out of my life to keep the pain at bay

I know people love me..couldn't be more clear

Why can't I accept it, why is it more than I can bear

Always included yet feel out of place

Where do I belong, why am I uncomfortable..in this loving space

How do I get up when I feel this way

So sad, so empty, it's hard to face the day

You'd never know, I've learned to play the part

Behind this smile, I hide my breaking heart

What's just under the surface, you'll never know

A true imposter, putting on a perfect show

I smile, I laugh, so no one sees the fight

But inside I'm drowning, each and every night

Tomorrow will be better, that's what I always say

It's been three summers, tomorrow feels so far away

This darkness keeps growing, its taken over my heart

I tell you everything is fine but I'm really falling.....apart

Is it time to close the curtain, time to end the show

You'd be so much happier without me, please tell me it's okay to go

So tired of the cycle of pretending and intending

I'm afraid my thoughts will lead to a tragic ending

How do I get up when I feel this way

So sad, so empty, it's hard to face the day

You'd never know, I've learned to play the part

Behind this smile, I hide my breaking heart

What's just under the surface, you'll never know

A true imposter, putting on a perfect show

I smile, I laugh, so no one sees the fight

But inside I'm drowning, still searching for the light

But inside I'm drowning, still searching for the light

Still searching for the light

Still searching for the light