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Yeah, yeah, yeah, this mind I live in it's a chasm

Looking at these cars and shit just wishing that I had them

Steady on my grind, why the fuck should I stop

I will keep on going till I'm nowhere but the top

Every motherfucker doubting me but they're so fucking blind

To see the vision that I keep inside, it stays locked

I speak from my mind, I translated it to paper

Tell me why the fuck you frauds are trying to ruin my plot

I don't conversate with fakes, they just trying to reach a false state

Trading out their morals for gain, bitch I can't relate

We don't want no handouts, we gon' make it on our own

Speaking on behalf of myself, that's what I condone

And trust me bro, I done struggled, been through hell and back

Didn't have no fucking food, now where's my wages at

I always got them late, shit, my boss would make me wait

I gotta provide for the family in a different way

To build funds in this life you gotta miss fun

I remember we was out all night just on the run

Now where's my mama at?

I don't fucking know

Everything was good back then about five years ago

And where's my baby gone? She ain't on her phone

And I seen that motherfucker with her before I went home

And now I'm freaking out, how long she been lying for

Only love me if it's real or else I will ignore

Lonely nights, never leaving

Looking out for bro, making sure that he's breathing

Keep the baseball bat just for creeping

That boy deserves a beating

That little motherfucker, trust me he will end up bleeding

Look, look, look

I often ask the dead for their advice on life

Gravestones became my only friends, yeah they were down for life

At night I'm steady screaming cos the voices in my head

They'll forever taunt me, your face will always haunt me

I cannot get this shit out my brain, now what else can be said

I always thought that by this time yeah I'd be fucking dead

Seein' my papa cry, and watching Mia die

Talking to my bro that's deaf, numb and fucking blind

Yeah that's all the shit that changed me

But even so when I'm feeling low

I grab the fucking shard and cut inside

My pain can't hide, finna try suicide

I'd rather die, I'd rather fucking die