dysphoric Lyrics

Melancholy memories detesting what you see of me

Depressed and there's no need to be

Impressed by what you think of me

I'm stuck in circles walking round

It's fucked and I can't make a sound

It's Everyday I'm feeling down

I'm screaming but I can't get out

Trapped up in this glass house

Future is the past now

Reaching for my chance now

See it but I rebound

Found myself wandering

6am I'm pondering

Is this really life?

Am I someone that I wanna be?

I just want a piece of something I can grasp

With my heart on my sleeve while I weave and I rasp

I don't breathe I just gasp with this weed on my lap

This deceit make me laugh guess I'm stuck in the past bitch

Tracing circles in my skin

Oxy burning like a zyn

Starve myself until I win

Sippin on some coke wit gin

Feelin it I'm tipsy

Don't lie bout"you miss me"

Saying you would"kiss me"

Why u acting risky?

Trust issues I can see

Striding in the black sea

Secrecy I'm masking

Currency I basking

Ghost you looking past me

Posted in my casket

Cruelty is the question I ain't ever getting passed it

Face up in the mirror with my alter that's another beast

I'm feasting on the souls of my enemies just to feel complete

I'm motionlessly moving through my life just to truly meet

Another fucking person who's complacent with the pain like me

This clothing all I care about

A friend? bitch I could go without

A"human" I don't care about

Emotionless I been without

So many fucking factors of my sanity I'm losing out

I can't recall a single memory from my life til now

Running like a lurcher from this force I feel behind me

I'ma leave this place one day and they gon never find me

Power that I'm seeing from the sun feels like a high beam

Blinding through your visor even if you got your eyes closed

Posted up on Saturn casting spells on all these white hoes

Wasting though my youth I can't cherish it like Tír na nÓg

Falling off my high horse grounding as I grow old

I'm an ancient legend feel like Oisín how my stories told

Dpd psychosis I can't focus on important things

I'm crying to the mirror I'm the only one perceiving wings

Dysphoric fucking body follows me through all the hell I bring

I'm riding like a Nazgûl throughout Mordor tryna get a ring

I'm such a fucking hassle I'm so sorry for this mess I've caused

I'm tryna make an impact like my bars when this this beat is paused

Know this deprecation of myself been going on too long

It's something I can't crack or even think of when it's going on

LGB mobbing wit my jeans when I got it on

I chose the way I'm living but these people got they daggers drawn

Constant criticism in my ears hoping that I fall

Been in limbo feel like fifty years but I'm still going strong

Dealing with the devil with no strings I feel like Robert John

Trapped up on the crossroads

Penetration crossbows

Posted in hollow with my homies this ain't dark souls

Hole up in my heart consumed by darkness where my youth go?