10.23.23 (a letter to the woman who broke my heart) Lyrics

October 23rd, 2023 - a letter to the woman who broke my heart

That day started out like any other

I woke up to a"good morning" Snapchat of your beautiful face

It's been about a year of off and on talking

Something I always wished would evolve into more, a real relationship

You and I, 29, seemed like we understood each other

Whenever I heard from you, my face would light up and I'd smile so much

I don't have the most attractive smile

But, when you're the culprit, my insecurities fade away

I accept that you're a single mother

Working three different jobs to support you and your son

I respect you so much for it

You told me I was different from all the other guys

That I make you smile, that I'm so sweet

That I gave you endless butterflies

So fast forward to the day you invited me over

To be with you while you recovered from getting your wisdom teeth pulled

I expected nothing and I wanted nothing but to be with you

So when I got more than what I bargained for, I took it as us making love

As each day passed by afterward

Things were still the same but I felt unstoppable

Then came the weekend we picked to go out on a date

Then I heard silence

There was no good morning, no text, no snap

And I couldn't understand what was going on

With each passing day afterward

My insecurities started to reappear and I kept blaming myself

There were days I couldn't fight back the tears

Times I had to hide at work so no one could see me cry

And days I didn't want to get out of my bed

I felt so weak, so crushed, so (fucking) empty

But, I can't and will never be mad at you for it

Part of me wishes you'll reappear and give me closure

But, I still wish you the very best

So thank you for letting me be a part of your life

Although it was very brief