Now I Sit In Melancholy Lyrics

I can't even look at myself anymore

The shame sends me down to pits

And when im at my lowest point

I start to consider it all

The motors turn through cogs

The plants will fend somehow

And now my god inside is weak

So i continue considering

As i look out of my window

Staring at the busy streets

Out there's better for my mind

But there's a barrier between

Nothing gives me reason

Searched but never have i found

Life's just trapping me within

And i'm looking to get out

The cold winds now creep up on the door

My defeat is worth more than before

It stands at the front and hurts like hell

Purging my mind like a shotgun shell

I've let go of it all, i've gone too far

No grasp on the real world, i know i'm done

I'd take upon these feelings

If it wasn't for the past

Time so casually proceeding

Worn off on my face and arms

"I have lost the need for needing"

Ruled out from my aching heart

Anything ever accomplished

Is in pages torn apart

I can't do nothing about this

Time had taken me to go

Restricted myself from

solutions

Now i recognize my faults

Then i tell myself it's nothing

But i know and truly fear

That i've driven into turmoil

And the end is nearing me

Oh

This was all my fault

I'm sorry for the way i've been

No more to write

I've already said everything

These rocks piled up

I stood in my melancholy

But their edges so sharp

Crushed my self undoubtedly