mm17 Lyrics

I can't run

I can't run

I can't run or hide now

I can't front

I can't front

I can't front or lie now

I just want

I just want

I just wanna die now

I just want

I just want

I just wanna die now

I can't run away from things that's killing me inside now

Wake up break cocaine get drunk and smoke and then I lie down

All my insecurities are eating me alive now

Never knew that misery could be a fucking lifestyle

I had it in the bag

Everything I thought I'd have was everything better left in the past, passed

Every other thing I that thought I'd need never thought I'd bring, laughs back

I don't gotta be the one to people please no more people please, yea that's

Not even a little bit a peace to me let's be decent please, stand back

Regardless of the start of things

Mentally hardened with the art of speech

Ten silly scars hidden partially

Vrinn vrinn with the car driven off the street

Been disregarded till I caused a scene

In my apartment broken hearted keep

Thoughts of self-harming in my noggin each

Part of the problems in my conscience deep breaths breathe

Hard then release

Bargain with peace

Sharpen the crease

Keep parting with grief

I don't wanna be seen starving and weak

Cuz I couldn't brush off getting knocked off my feet

I'm exhausted all the damn obstacles keep

Constantly topping off probability

Of conquering things that been haunting in me

I'm sorry all the sorrow keeps talking to me

I'm stressed from the wreck and it's left me a mess

PTSD in the depths of my head

Unguarded vulnerable I guess is the best to expect

From being so manically depressed

I can't run

I can't run

I can't run or hide now

I can't front

I can't front

I can't front or lie now

I just want

I just want

I just wanna die now

I just want

I just want

I just wanna die now

I can't run away from things that's killing me inside now

Wake up break cocaine get drunk and smoke and then I lie down

All my insecurities are eating me alive now

Never knew that misery could be a fucking lifestyle

Now I gotta choose

Now I gotta bend the rules

Now I gotta break the noose

Not about to vacate rooms when I'm anxious

Basically been a damn slave to my changing moods

Maybe I'm a tame dangerous dude

Maybe I'm ashamed angry and rude

Lately I been awake thinking of who

Is to blame for all the damn things that I do

But it's me

I been here in disbelief

Lookin in the mirror displeased

Look into the mirror and scream

Full of fear

It appears that I been getting seriously seared at the seams

Always been a little weird it seems

Hallways empty in my lucid dreams

Hollow and empty is the way I think I'm stay

I could never get away redeemed

What's left

Liquor burned holes in my chest

Everyone knows ima mess

Every last home that I'm in dismantles

Till I hit the road and I'm going onto the next

What's left

Another big waste of a check

Smother my face in the yak

Another bad taste that I take by the mouthful

Outgrew my little safe place that I prayed I would get

What's left

Couple sick thoughts in my head

Cult of sin stalking my bed

I gotta get this off of my chest it's awful

Never can forgive or forget who caused these events

What's left

All the tears talk that I shed

All the beers scoff I ingest

All the peer talks that I get get partial

Ima take my fucking head off in the coffin I'll rest

I can't run

I can't run

I can't run or hide now

I can't front

I can't front

I can't front or lie now

I just want

I just want

I just wanna die now

I just want

I just want

I just wanna die now

I can't run away from things that's killing me inside now

Wake up break cocaine get drunk and smoke and then I lie down

All my insecurities are eating me alive now

Never knew that misery could be a fucking lifestyle