Midsommar Lyrics

Yesterday I had a fucking

Nervous break down

Call it a quarter life crisis

That I'm trapped in

I feel like life is

Such a beautiful playground

But sometimes I'm scared what'll happen

Once I grab the swing

Knowing damn well

That I'm being selfish

Selfish

I know I hurt your feelings

I feel so helpless

Helpless

Afraid I'm pushing you away

I put my face down

For the hopes

Of tryna keep my head up

When it's time to bounce

Bounce

Bounce

Bounce

Shits been going south for me

It's like surround sound

Somethings got it out for me

Maybe I'm paranoid

Pretending I don't hear the noise

I'm losing you now

Tell me if it's just all a dream

I'm vulnerable

I just can't say that I'm over you

I can't believe it's so overdo

Back in therapy

My mind been over the moon

I don't know what to do

I'm afraid I have more problems

Than I think I have

Reflecting on some

Traumatizing moments in my past

I hit the pad

Head first I'm tryna make it back

To this place

Where I can feel safe

Enough to fucking laugh

About it

I've been putting my problems

Onto the ones I love the most

I'll do everything in my power

Just not to spiral out of control

Sometimes life is a bitch

It is what it is

It's murder she wrote

I feel like a coward

If it goes downward

Then am I to blame or no

Knowing damn well

That I'm being selfish

Selfish

I know I hurt your feelings

I feel so helpless

Helpless

Afraid I'm pushing you away

I put my face down

For the hopes

Of tryna keep my head up

When it's time to bounce

Bounce

Bounce

Bounce

Shits been going south for me

It's like surround sound

Somethings got it out for me

Maybe I'm paranoid

Pretending I don't hear the noise

I'm losing you now

Tell me if it's just all a dream

Fears of not being

Further in my career

I believe that I'm bound to get there

Just pissed that it isn't here

Impatient for all the

Work and rewards to become more clear

For me

Maybe it's fear of them

Maybe it's fear of me

Maybe it's fear of death and

Of them only mentioning

My name with a RIP

Maybe it's a fear of

Not making my fam proud

Of their son before their deceased

I'm not at ease at the moment

Why do my girl and dad think I'm chosen

I know I ain't diagnosed with nothing

But I still feel like it's something

Thank god I'm on these anti depressants

Thank god like he just sent me a message

Pray to god I'm never using a weapon

Facing fears have turned into an obsession

Do you know about the type of

Panic attack where you feel that

Feeling at the edge of a cliff

And even though nothing is really wrong

But your brain makes you

Think that there is

Knowing damn well

That I'm being selfish

Selfish

I know I hurt your feelings

I feel so helpless

Helpless

I think I'm pushing me away

But I don't make a sound

Took my burdens

Tossed them in the fire

We gon' burn them down

That's vulnerable

I'm not afraid to get vulnerable

Maybe if I'm little vulnerable

Would that make me seem approachable

I don't know

I just know

Feels like hope is gone

Even when it feels like

Your all alone

Hurt inside

Voice staying monotone

Reoccurring thoughts like

Feedback on the phone