i could never change Lyrics

I was telling you I could never change

Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's running through my veins

Now I'm stuck in reminiscence, thinking it was not so bad

But my head is filling gaps, that's the cost of looking back

But you never really seem to care

No, you never really, no, you never really seem to care

I never cared for your sake, telling me that I can't change

But back then it was first base, now the place I'm at like home plate

I'm moving too fast and I crashed out, surface level f*ck a background

I would just space when I had doubt, I'd get home feeling like I blacked out

(Blacked out, blacked out)

My past self wonder what I have now, cause my future's so hard to track now

Yeah, I know I'm breathing, but do I really feel alive? (Feel alive, fe-feel alive…)

But now they hear me clearly, so I'm asking, could I really die? (Really die, really die,)

Could I really die?

I was telling you I could never change

Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's running through my veins

Now I'm stuck in reminiscence, thinking it was not so bad

But my head is filling gaps, that's the cost of looking back

You never cared how I felt

It's funny saying that to myself

But I'm proving myself, yeah

Slowly but surely I'm doing this shit, couple tricks in my belt

The level we on, I'm improving it, no I can never be stooping it

I got some shit I'm pursuing and, lately I'm just in a rut

Lately they think I ain't tough, lately I'm working

I can't get it perfect, I can't do enough

And if you saw this shit through my eyes

Worried about my future like I'm looking at the timeline

It never really mattered by the time I reached the end

And I'm wasting all my days thinking about how they were spent

I was telling you I could never change

Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's burning through my veins

Now I'm sucking reminiscences, thinking it was not so bad

But my head's spinning, guess that's the cost of looking back

Telling you I'll never change

I was telling you I could never change

I was telling you I could never change

Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's running through my veins

Now I'm stuck in reminiscence, thinking it was not so bad

But my head is filling gaps, that's the cost of looking back

I was telling you I could never change

Now there's poison in my system, yeah, it's running through my veins

Now I'm stuck in reminiscence, thinking it was not so bad

But my head is filling gaps, that's the cost of looking back

Telling you I'll never change