What I Fear The Most Lyrics

I'm in my head so much, I really can't decipher

What I feel from what's real, and what I should hide from

Yeah, I'm on one again

Yeah, I drop my defense

Get my hopes up, but I'm just so tired, I mean it

I don't really see it as you do

With this dark cloud that falls down restricting my view

It's a nuisance

But is the noose an improvement

These invasive thoughts have me feeling so stupid

It's useless

I pick myself apart like they do

And hold myself to standards I know I can't make do

I never let them see the weakness that's inside of me

'Cause there's some pride to me. I know it to stay true

If they only knew the demons that I face

When I'm in another world that's so difficult to place

I could live at my own pace and escape the monotony

And all the negativity that fills a part of me

Tell me, why am I not enough

All these voices up in my mind got me so messed up

When I make a mistake, I can never let it go

When I look at my face, I see what I fear the most

Tell me, why am I not enough for myself

And I struggle with it daily

Suffer with these preconceptions that'll only drive me crazy

No, you can't save me, I can only save myself

Never one who's known to back down or ever ask for help

Not a selfish progression, just held by depression

Enveloped by self-deprecation, pathetic

And, though I said it, I just hope I come around

I build myself up just to break myself down

But I know the way

To find the pieces

And through those mistakes

That left me bleeding

I won't throw away

What I've been seeking

So long as I'm still breathing, it's clear

Tell me, why am I not enough

All these voices up in my mind got me so messed up

When I make a mistake, I can never let it go

When I look at my face, I see what I fear the most

Tell me, why am I not enough for myself

For myself

I'm worth so much more than I give myself credit for

My anxiety pushes me forward

My depression holds me back

I'm gonna lose my life

If I don't get my mind on track

Why am I not enough

Why am I not enough

Why am I not enough

Why am I not enough

I'll only be enough

For myself when I realize that I always was

When I make a mistake, I will learn to let go

When I look at my face, I will let myself know

That I've always been enough

For myself

The answer is love for myself

The answer is love for myself

The answer is love for myself