Actually Lyrics

Crashed my car

I'm fucking up bad

Trashed my room

I'm looking for a stash

Left my pills in my bros house

He prob took em all n died from that

maybe he-

Oh never mind ima leave it with that

Actually I wished that I spoke out

I might die in a whore house

I cant stop thinking bout

You

So I wish I did that shi' back in 2019

Or was it 2020

I ain't getting in detail but you might know

Maybe the text dont send

And if this text don't send then I ain't make amends

I break don't bend, I hate my face

This mirror hate me, we will meet in the end

I self reflect

No self respect

I sell myself

And expect my check

Fuck this song cause I feel like a mess

I might rip this shit right out my chest

And this second verse I write might make no sense

But I promise you now its in my head

So tell me boo

Cause I ain't really lie I say the truth

I say the truth

Actually I hate you too

Cause I hate myself

And I hate this pain

The man in the mirror hates me too

This man in my room might save me tho

Actually this flag I wave ain't for you dawg

This flag I wave is for myself

Cut myself, I cut myself, I-I-

I learned to keep my head down when this shi dont work

And when I feel like nun, I searched for gold.

I act so bold

A bitch like you gotta bite when she is told.

Fuck dat shit, jan 12 even zodiacs say I'm the goat.

I never learned how to cope.

Blood on my hands I can't wash this shit with no soap.

I say that shit so much

Cause damn I'm paranoid

I hate my voice

I hate this noise

I love these sins, but I wanna be blessed

Naw not like that

Thats Allah putting me through a test

Temptation

Running out of patience

Running out of time, running out the station

Running out of lines and my feet cant keep pacing

Actually my soul is all sore from the beating that its taking

Actually my goal for the end was love and be vacant

I will drop this song it don't matter what the stakes is

Told them fuck da underground I was leaving the basement

You can see it in my blank face-faces

Actually it's a facelift

Actually it's me being honest

Me keeping da promise

It's me saying fuck the whole project

Do I look like an object?

Do I look like I'm a puppet?

Yes I do and i hope that there isn't an option

And I hope that you see me

Hope that you miss me

Hope that you die for me

Actually I hope you was history

Clear it all

Clear it all

Clear it all

Clear it all

Clear it all