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I'm not scared of you and that is just what scares me


Does the contradiction make you mad?

Sure as hell's confusing and I think it would be

Fair if mostly I just make you sad

There's gotta be a reason

We're in our fifth season

So I apologize for counting days

Gotta record of self-preservation

Gotta record of self-sabotage

And I apologize for tendencies at odds

How am I supposed to trust my gut when taking chances isn't fair?

When the opposite of what I think I think's a nightmare

I'm tired, I don't care

I'd be tired with anyone, anywhere

Can something broken break again

Don't find out, don't go there

My instincts, they scatter

Til I'm not sure they matter

I'd rather fall and be shattered

Than never climb a ladder

How I wish I wouldn't fish for reassurance

Watch me make a list and check it twice

Cherry pick the evidence, ignore the signs

I'm trying way too hard to make you nice

There's gotta be a reason

We're in our fifth season

And I'm still so goddamn insecure

Between the instinct to jump to conclusions

And the instinct to self-reassure

I apologize if everything's a blur

How am I to trust my gut when I know exactly how I'd fair

If the opposite of what I think I think's a nightmare

I'm tired, I don't care

I'd be tired with anyone, anywhere

Can something broken break again

Don't find out, don't go there

My instincts, they scatter

Til I'm not sure they matter

I'd rather fall and be shattered

Than never climb a ladder