Still Lyrics

Still finding more about me when I'm all alone

Still got scars deep inside me that I never show

Still remember all the times where I felt I weren't enough

Think it changed me into someone I don't even know

Still have moments where I'm down and feeling misplaced

Still get nights where I think that I'm a mistake

Still got people asking me where I been at

Took a turn for the worse so I'll hit 'em back another day

I'm not the type of person that you want to keep too close

I've hurt people just as much as ones that hurt me most

Got both hands filled with my pride it's overflown

There's something inside of me that's trying to row the boat

Where I don't want to go, don't know where this road will take me

All I know is that the path I'm on will likely break me

And it's strange 'cause lately I just always keep on runnin'

From all of my problems even though I should've seen 'em comin'

I feel selfish if I put myself first, I feel pity if I put myself last

And y'all can see that I'm a walking contradiction

Always feeling so cursed

But I'm just hoping that this chapter will pass

And I been tryna go and get up out this hole now

The same one I put myself in but don't know how

If I could pile up my sins and my wrongs

And the pain that I have caused

Doubt I'd make it to the top, I'm just airing out my flaws, yeah

Still finding more about me when I'm all alone

Still got scars deep inside me that I never show

Still remember all the times where I felt I weren't enough

Think it changed me into someone I don't even know

Still have moments where I'm down and feeling misplaced

Still get nights where I think that I'm a mistake

Still got people asking me where I been at

Took a turn for the worse so I'll hit 'em back another day

I'm not a role model, I really don't coddle

Been feeling closer to the edge could down a whole bottle

To free myself of this poison that's been flowing in me

With another of toxin, maybe that won't leave me feeling empty

I used to dream that one day I would grow to be somebody

That would have a higher purpose and inspire hope

But lately I just look at myself in the mirror and wonder

Who would want to look up to me if I'm always trying to cope?

With all my selfish problems, I think I've hit the bottom

Been watching myself slowly fade away like leaves in Autumn

All the time, years been falling by, I been losing sleep

Lately I can't find the person that I used to be

And all these rainy clouds follow when I'm breaking down

But I pushed away the ones around me, who can save me now?

It's on me, can't put the blame on no one else

As I'm sinking in this hell, know I did this to myself, yeah

Still finding more about me when I'm all alone

Still got scars deep inside me that I never show

Still remember all the times where I felt I weren't enough

Think it changed me into someone I don't even know

Still have moments where I'm down and feeling misplaced

Still get nights where I think that I'm a mistake

Still got people asking me where I been at

Took a turn for the worse so I'll hit 'em back another day