Catch My Breath (Run) Lyrics

Say something with some substance

Lot of shit on my mind I just try to run from it

On my Houdini I escape into comfort

Trying to stay sane

I'm just trying to maintain

Tell me I should talk couldn't explain if I wanted

Dark thoughts in my brain I feel like I'm haunted

Try to intervene it's not up for discussion

Went from drunk to high

I just switched what my buzz was

Suicide was on my mind

And I'd be lying if I said I didn't try

Guess it just wasn't my my time

Dusted myself off convinced myself I was fine

Heaped the pressure on myself

Like man if you can't do this then you probably should have died

Pushed myself to my limit

But I always I resembled a failure in my eyes

Trying to catch a break before I break me

Music didn't fix me even though it saved me

No amount of love outweighs how much I hate me

Doing anything that I can to feel pain free

Living through re runs I binge watch

Constant state of alert could hear a pin drop

Where others see successes I only see missed shots

So please don't ask me again why I seem pissed off

This time I leave it all on the mic

This time I swear I'm doing it right

Cause Where do you turn when there's no bottle cap to twist off

No spliff to smoke to elevate and lift off

Just trying to catch my breath

Swear I'm trying to catch my breath

Just trying to catch my breath

Swear I'm trying to catch my breath

Cause I feel like I'm running

Feel like I'm down

Like im drowning and airs all I'm wanting

And sometimes I want to feel nothing

I got ghosts need confronting

But I run the other way

I'm not proud I'm ashamed

But what you want me to say

I'm a mess I guess fuck it

Must be in love with this hell

Cause I take pride in needing nobody else

I been down bad and nobody helped

Never see me needing nobody's help

But here's one lie that nobody tells

Calling me selfish

See I never fail

To come through and pick you up

You just asking for a lift and I lift you up

Then I feel like a fool cause I did too much

I could lose both knees and still be your crutch

But when you go leave I know I wasn't enough

The extent of your needs was the extent of your love

And it's my fault you finessed me out my trust

it's my fault I believed I could really be loved

But Thank I got the means to keep me numb

Another demon for me to out run

Just trying to catch my breath

Swear I'm trying to catch my breath

Just trying to catch my breath

Swear I'm trying to catch my breath