sandy loam Lyrics

Sinking in the swamp like I'm Sandy Loam

Sprouting mushrooms like my name was Toad

My therapist telling me to share the load

I told em that's easier when you're not alone

I'm a lone survivor of suicide

Been tryna leave this fucking place since the age of nine

But I'm incompetent

I don't really know how to do this shit

Easier to waste away and not think about it

Emerge from the grime

Wipe the slime from my eyes as I find another way to waste my time

I recline and text my mom I'm feeling fine

As I think of a million other ways I could die

Yeah I lied to my mom

I don't have a bar for that, I just feel really bad about it

Sorry mom

Don't ask for whom the bell tolls

I'm already running for the door

Eating my weight like Joey Chestnut

Treating fruity loops like a sound investment

I sleep in a blanket of warning signs

And I'm rarely awake before 12:05

Yeah you got me, I had to add a number

But I'm not gonna let that disturb my slumber

Let alone the concerns of friends and family

Trying to help's the definition of insanity

Same me, different results?

You'd be better off deprogramming cults

Leave me in miasma

Wrap me in despair

But most importantly

Let me stay in my chair

Don't ask for whom the bell tolls

I'm already running for the door