SICK OF IT (2017) Lyrics

I woke up one night

It was almost three in the morning

I woke up to ambulance sirens

Outside of my house

All the noise but I was lost in the silence

Incredible silence

Lost in the chaos

The karma you pay off

That was only the start of my journey

The start of depression

I woke up one night every night

For the rest of my life

Just to wake up to silence my demons

Who don't let me sleep

Or my thoughts that always just creep on me

Stalk on me feed on me

I was the prey so I pray

But eight years later they won't go away

They wake me to play

And I am not evil but do as they say

They lead me away from my faith and the grace

I've been searching I'm hurting

The darkness is lurking

I'm putting this shit in my head

Cause my mind is so cloudy and distant

Feels like it's missing drifting

Out of my conscious

And into this planet of nothing

This planet of hunger and hatred

And evil and similar people

Who hate on each other like animals

How do you stop it

The more that I think

The more that it hurts

Just put me under the dirt

Cause the more that I think

I realize this is reality

Whole time I thought I was dreaming

This was a nightmare

I'm living my life like everyone else

So I ask that voice in my head for advice

And it tells me to give into life

And just let it take me away

Cause what is the point in fighting your mind

Cause my mind follows that love

But my brain knows that love ends up

Fucking you over till you're

No longer sober you break

And pray that the bullet

Will end you today you'll finally feel alright

You'll finally feel all fucking right

Take one last look at the sky

Cause you know I know you know

That I know that you know

That bad things happen at night

Cause bad things happen at night

Blood tears death bad things happen at night

Take one last look at the sky before

Bad things happen at night

Bad things happen at night

Blood tears death bad things happen at night

Take one last look at the sky before

Bad things bad things happen at night

What can I say that I haven't

I feel all the pressure and I can not handle it

Pressure from living in death cause

I'm afraid to let anyone down

To let anyone frown

When I don't give a fuck about nada

Not even myself

But there's something about me

I can not figure it out

It bothers me it's honestly hard for me to see

Anyone down because of me

It honestly makes me weak

Cause there's people that love me

I still feel like this

They notice they make no change in me

And they feel like this

And I'm sick of it

People don't realize

That all the love in the world

Won't bring back the dead

It won't cure your regrets

It won't stop you from popping some meds

Or get you off your bed

Cause it sucks when

All the people around you

Won't change the fact that you are alone

How does it feel when your house

Is not your fucking home?

I won't pick up the phone

That's just another chore im not willing to do

Sorry you're asking for who

Danny has lost his mind

Leave a message with nine

And maybe I'll let him know

SICK OF IT

FUCKING SICK OF IT