200 Emails Lyrics

I'm so sick of feeling like I'm on the outside looking in

Wondering if I belong or when it's my turn for a win

Am I just playing pretend and spinning with my feet on the ground?

I send 200 emails a day and get bout 8 replies

6 of them said 'no' and 2 said 'yes' but then they changed their mind

Will it ever by my time or am I running out of it now?

I can feel my dreams just floating away

I did everything down to the T's I crossed

Don't know if I can stay

One more day

Where I try but nothing seems to change

I will go as long as this thing takes

But will I catch a break before I break

One more night

Fall asleep thinking I ruined my life

I will go as long as this thing takes

But will I catch a break before I break

All my friends have jobs and rings and ask me if I made it yet

Mom wants me to call Beyonce, ask if she needs anything

Feel like no one really gets the things I gotta do to get by

Every moment passing makes my "when's" turn more into an "if"

Obsess over numbers because at least someone's listening

I guess it's the little wins that keep us all from losing our mind

I can feel my dreams just floating away

I did everything down to the T's I crossed

Don't know if I can stay

One more day

Where I try but nothing seems to change

I will go as long as this thing takes

But will I catch a break before I break

One more night

Fall asleep thinking I ruined my life

I will go as long as this thing takes

But will I catch a break before I break