GHOST PT1 Lyrics

I uh

I woke up on the phone without you

I freaked out

Yeah

I met you it was kinda crazy

Found a common interest

All you did was so amazing

Kept on hanging then I

Found out that you had a baby

Found out that you had a baby

I can't hold you

It had made me lose my interest

Then you asked if I was down to drink

And I was distant

Kept it at a level 'cause you cute

But not a mistress

Then I moved away and start to

Really feel the distance

Damn

I don't deserve you

and I don't even deserve to be friends with you

I don't even deserve to be able to talk to you

Yeah

Knew we was a little more

But then you open up the door

Or can of worms

As snakes would call the truth

I gotta tell you 'bout my past

Hope not to be obtuse

I just know that you and him be kicking it

And we used to

Damn

Now I gotta keep it honest

I been over fighting this battle

Like I'm beyond this

Take what you can get and leave

It ain't got be a contest

But then she asking for a ride

I'm there without a promise

Feeling like I'm Urkel wondering

If I had did this

All the flags are present

But my heart and brain are distant

I can't even tell if this is something more

Than just a picnic

You had brought the chocolates

But I brought all the kisses

Now ain't that really something

Even if I wanted to quit it

I'd still be running

Cause you keep me in this bliss

That most would call ignorance

But even if it is

I'd still be there to blow a kiss

Like shit

Can't even think straight

Every single move you make

Is perfect in its own way

Or in my own eyes

I promised you I'd tell you no lies

But even if this scares you

Gotta tell you

I've had no nights of rest

You have put me to the test

All the shit I knew I left

Girl you really seem the best

But I ask around

And people say that I should

Take a step back

But you lean in and no

I can't take a step back

I just really need a moment

Just to breathe it out

Or be anywhere near me

I just really need a moment

Or just talk to me

Yeah

Say you don't want hurt me

But girl fuck it let me be hurt

I'd rather that than

Wonder 'bout you daily

And IG lurk

Days be hot and cold witchu

It's feeling like a fever

They text me that they want me

Not the same

They couldn't be her

Minutes turn to moments

I can feel without your presence

Wanna have you wrapped around my head

Like you a necklace

We could fit together

If you down for playing tetris

I done aced these hoes

Now you really are my best test

And I wont give it up

Put me inside of your life

And we gon' live it up

But if you decide that you gone

I won't be givin' love

All the shit I did for you

Has really started adding up

Money for the little one

And sure you paid it back

But now it's clear

It's cause you never wanna take me back

It's all

All on me

To grow

But then you found out

Now you ain't answering

I'm last to win

And now I'm left to

Mask a grin

I'm mastering

Myself

It's all I have to give

Hard to numb out all the pain

When you my aspirin

I found peace

And now these demons you have

Casted in

I'm not sure if it's attention that you

Basking in

But it's all gone

Better keep that same energy

When I'm done

It's like a call out

There for better days

Not there to see the fall out

There's a better way

I'm all in

But you all out

Now I'm stuck

And I'm here waiting for your

Call now

Call now

I can pretend that I'm pushing

You a wall now

I can't depend on a cushion

For the fall now

I was speeding my emotions

Now I stall out

And now I stall out

Thank you

For a year

Of being my only friend